Questions

When you think of someone "having a baby", it's such an abstract concept.

"Hey, so-and-so are having a baby."
"Oh, Really? That's great!"

I'm sure you've had this conversation with someone many times before, but when that so-and-so is you, it takes on a whole new meaning. Suddenly, that abstract concept becomes all too real, and you understand what that really means. It means that in the body of the one you love more than anyone, a child is growing. A baby that is a little of you and a little of her, but at the same time it someone entirely different. Every time I see these ultrasounds, I think of the life we've created. Who is this person going to be? Will it look like me or Steph? Will we like the same things? Will she have Steph's eyes or will he have mine?

Will I be a good father?

Sometimes these questions can completely overwhelm me, and I may spend 5 minutes just staring into space. I know we have months and months before these questions will be answered. I know that in those months more will pop up, demanding answers. I really can't wait to find out.